Being on the cusp of two signs explains why I probably feel bipolar most days; lately it has been everyday. Usually when I read my horoscope, I think I'm more Aquarius, but if you ask me, I'll tell you I'm a Pisces. I am literally a walking contradiction. I'm here to admit that my horoscope reading and research has led me to some very interesting and real truths about myself. I'm going to try and focus on why I am always on the fence when it comes to most situations in my life, based off the stars. This is therapy for me so stop laughing.
Here's a little breakdown about each sign from the world wide web (see http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/aquarius.htm) if you want to check out the full article, as well as the other signs).
Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even though this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.
Pisces is the sign of mysticism, mystery and the spiritual unknown. Pisces live in two worlds, the real world and the spiritual or mystical world where they interpret what they see into what they want. They do this to avoid all the realities of pain and suffering in the world. They have extremes of emotions and feel both good and bad intensively. Pisces have formidable intuitive ability. Most Pisces are somehow involved with occult or spiritualism. Pisces are very good at understanding people for they have the ability to delve into the psyche and see behind a person's motivations. Pisces are prone to drug addiction and indulging lifestyles because of their eternal search for themselves and their fear of confrontation and having to change a situation, also they justify drug use by allowing it to get closer with their 'spiritual selves'. Once they are aware this is why they are doing it, it will be easier to kick the habit. Pisces are not the pushovers that they may seem, in fact they have strength of character and will stand up for what they believe in and and they can do hard work for something they believe in. They can be very lazy but only in matters that they do not care about. Pisces is the most sensitive of all zodiac signs.
I bet if you know me and we're close, you were probably shaking your head yes and laughing when you could see the parts that sounded like me. So now do you see my dilemma? If you didn't catch it or were too lazy to actually read the whole thing, I went ahead and highlighted it for you. Both of these signs are already kinda two-faced as it is and here I am with both. I'm a hot mess according to this. Thankfully I don't believe everything I read and neither should you. :) Now I can write about how I feel some of these characteristics apply to me.
First, let's talk about how this fight between two signs plays out with my friendships. When it comes to my true friends, I am most definitely a Pisces. I will go to the ends of the Earth to help them if they need me. Those of you know how I hold things down. Yes, they know who they are. Thankfully my Aquarius side keeps me and the fake friends in check though . No one will ever take my kindness and generosity as an invitation to treat me like a doormat. I can easily detach myself from a person if they wrong me. I have no problem leaving your ass in my past. In this case, I'm glad that I have both sides. I have some fucking amazing friends and have gladly ridden myself of the assholes that couldn't keep up.
Love. Now for the fun complications. This is probably where the two sides do not get along the most. I am more Aquarius as far as the ways of the heart. I was raised to always take care of myself and be independent, so that is very much ingrained in me. I do not require constant attention or a ton of affection but when I need it, I want it all or nothing. Yet the Pisces side of me is still a romantic, so don't think I don't like all that gushy shit just cause I'm not needy or clingy. I also try to be nurturing, although I think it comes off as nagging and overbearing since I'm not as soft around the edges. My poor husband. That is all I'm gonna say about that.
Next up, religion. I'm not about it. I am all about spirituality and a higher being, but I refuse to be a part of an organized religion. Straight Pisces right there. This drives a majority of my family nuts. It's ok though, because My God rocks and loves me just the way I am. The Aquarius in me likes to explore other religions and find pieces that feel "at one" with what I already believe. I wholeheartedly believe that there are threads of truth in all religions and that it's naive to think that only one could be the end all and be all.
Josslyn is always my first and foremost but I saved the best for last. I never would have thought motherhood and astrology would ever relate, but her and I are already butting heads and I blame it on her being a Leo. I'm still not quite sure whether my Aquarius or Pisces side is more dominant yet as far as parenting her. At this point in the game, I'm still winning with my logic, sarcasm, and stubborness, thanks to Aquarius. Her lion mentality has put me in quite the predicament. I appreciate the fact that she is growing up with a strong will and her own opinions, but I would love if it wasn't at the expense of my nerves. She pushes all the right buttons and yelling matches have already begun. I'm seriously on high alert for the teenage Josslyn to hit way earlier than 13.
So there you have it. Now you have even more excuses to think I'm crazy, but it was kind of nice to see how some traits do come into play in my day to day life. Not saying horoscopes are the Bible or anything, but I must say they do come close sometimes. Worry about me when I start believing all my fortune cookies and playing the lottery with the lucky numbers on the back. Until then, I shall continue my horoscope reading and also be checking up on some of you fools too. I know you...and I know you better than you think. ;)
