Thursday, June 30, 2011

Crazy beautiful life!

Ok so I haven't been on here in awhile and honestly it's because I'm fucking busy.  It's a lame ass excuse, but it's true so that's why I'm writing now ok so get off my back. 

The last month has been horrible and here's why.  First, my job of 6 years ended; not happy about that at all.  I was perfectly fine with where I was and then the big shots decided they wanted to retire and make a ton of money.  I would have been psyched about it if I was a big shot. (FML)  May 17th came and it all ended.  I don't even want to talk about the emotional baggage I still have due to being forced into a new job without my best friends.  I'm that sad about it.  So anyway, it's time to find a new job...sounds so easy for the oil and gas business and yet of course that had to be a complete nightmare for me.  I had 2 jobs lined up.  Yep 2, and somehow both of them were crap shoots.  Awesome.  If I didn't have a severance package, shit would of got real right then and there.  Hold it together.  Just hold it together.  That's all I could tell myself to keep from losing it.  We all like happy endings (that's what she said!), so I'm glad to inform you that I found work; just don't want you to worry about me too much lol.  It's been a couple weeks, and all jokes aside, I am in a good place. 

Another thing eating away at me is my daughter growing up.  She is going to be 3 already.  What the hell is happening with all this growing up and getting old shit?!  I didn't sign up for this mom business thinking it would just flash before my eyes!!!  I have to plan her party and I honestly can't bring myself to do it.  For some reason this birthday is especially hard.  I think it's because of the fact that I still see her as my baby and yet she insists on being a diva and trying to do her own thing.  I didn't think I had to worry about this issue until she was at least 13.  WRONG!  She has my personality and attitude that I have now at 26.  If you know me, then you can paint your own picture.  She's a Leo (I prefer hellcat) so that should have been my first clue of where this story was leading.  Let's start with some examples.  She repeats everything she hears.  Not right away mind you, so she'll throw you a curve ball and announce loudly that she sounds like an Asian kid sometimes.  Let me explain.  In my defense, I told her she sounded like Mrs. Swan from MadTV a couple weeks ago.  She did!!!  Stop judging me.  She asked me who that was and I told her it was an Asian lady that was on tv.  Somehow she absorbed that and this is the kind of thing I'm trying to deal with on a daily basis...literally.  I come home from work and I never know what new surprises she's learned from her adventures in the world.  She also likes to yell, "Whoa whoa whoa, muffin top!"  I'm to blame for this also and it was my own muffin top being referred to by the way.  This whole mom thing is hard.  You're still judging...stop it.

So you see it's been quite an eventful couple of weeks for me and I'm assuming it's not gonna end anytime soon.  I've gotten used to being at a new elevated level of stress so I just deal with it.  Life is keeping me on my toes that's for sure.  I will try and be better at blogging more often, mostly for my sake, but because it's fun to share some of the craziness of life with everyone.  It keeps me sane knowing other parents are having just as much fun behind the scenes as we are. :)